I didnt know there’s a deadline to happiness.
I didnt know it could end so abruptly.
I didnt know I would get sick of it too..
I didnt know I would feel the other way either
I didnt expect any of this to happen.
But oh well, MIND IS CLEARED.
Stone is finally moving, at a slow pace.
YIPEEEEEEEEEAYE
I pray for one day everything would be different.
The people around me, the status-es around me.
A total change.
I like this idea. a lot.
I am confused
Confused about myself, about what the hell I did for the past few days.
Im not a mean person, but I’m a straightforward person and I have my limits for being straightforward.
But somehow currently, to look on the situation itself and not indulging any other feelings…
I think I’ve been blaming the wrong person, but somehow I think I did not.
I am not someone who can take things left undone.
I need them to be settled properly and done, clean without leaving any hard feelings.
But current situation, I really dont know and cant differentiate who is real and who is fake.
Who should I believe?
Who’s words should I take?
Are they acting in front of me?
Who is trying to cover up something?
For the first time, I’m handling things so clumsily.
This is so not me, so not me.
Somehow I have to change, change to be determined with my own stand.
To be able to know what I really one and know what is the objective I am going for.
Definitely I know one thing, at least I am able to feign deaf and mute when I’m supposed to.
This guy is really too ridiculous. I believe every readers here knows how to feigh mute when they are suppose to right?
But apparently this guy doesnt and this guy is really a kid who is at the age of 18.
and this guy is pissing me off every single second whenever I thought of all his childish words he ever said to me, out of anger, trying to bring me down.
fuck man, I really dislike this poly life. Too much drama, I want to quit school so bad.
There’s nothing for me to look forward to in school anymore 
